Miles’ Difficult Letter

Letter that Miles wrote to Inhora Guest. Transcription below.

12/25 Christmas - by Miles

Christ is born! Glory to Him!

Dear ___,

Today's joy has a tinge of sorrow and guilt. I learned that you died today, and not at Inhora.

The days leading up to Tuesday 12/23 were difficult and harder each day. Your inner turmoil leading to acting out, restlessness, and childishness (not in a bad way) kept reaching a new level.

I reached what felt like a limit - and I felt like the Inhora team did, too. But deep down - and not too deep - I knew you were close to settling in. I kept thinking, "One more day”... until Tuesday.

Despite my gut - the Whisper of God I took the open door that hospice offered! They said that you couldn't keep on like that and the meds weren't working.

I gave in. I took the easy road. I gave up.

I was wrong - I wronged you. One more day. One more night. I heard it last week - "Don't stop digging - you're only 3 feet away from hitting gold." But I stopped.

Forgive me. I’m sorry for everything.

In memory of you, brother, I won't stop digging!

Seeing and embracing you will be one of the things I will look most forward to in heaven.

Pray that I get there. I will pray for you.

With love,

Miles