Rosa’s Heartfelt Note

Transcript of letter below.

Dear ______,

There was so many questions and many doubts in that death bed. So much pain. Several times I did not know what to do with you anymore. You wanted company, care and compassion and even though that is our mission there was many times I didn't want to do this anymore.

I didn't want to care for you. I felt no love or care for you. I did not want you. You would talk to me about your life. There were many times when I did not really care what your pain, your small fear, your small confusion, your frustration in that room. You felt miserable. No matter whether I prayed or not. A part of me wanted you gone, because of those sleepless nights. This is why this is happening. A part of me wanted you to get better and another wanted you gone. Those sleepless nights had me irritated and exhausted.

Until God just reminded me that love is an action not an emotion. That if this is my calling I have to continue acting on love, despite of my emotions, that is true love. We are so used to thinking love is a feeling. But it’s not.

So, _____, thank you for all you taught me. Thank you for those sleepless nights. Thank you because of you I realized I want to get to my Creator. Thank you for being my teacher for a time period I met you.

Thank you, ____.

I love you.

Rosa